I've been super, super nervous lately. I am literally vibrating, and I mean that in a very literal sense. I am perpetually stuck in a state not unlike the stomach undergoes in a descent of the first hill of the Millennium Force roller coaster at Cedar Point. And OMG depressed. Every second of every day right now seems like an eternity filled with a living nightmare of dread.
I was right smack in the middle of changing my medication because the old ones just don't work anymore, when my insurance company decided on a whim not to cover my new meds. Bam, just like that. I'm off the old one and no new one. What a crazy mental spiral this is. So here I sit, with a mind full of confusion and with the worst case of depression and anxiety I've even had, while some committee of suits decides if they want to grace me with the return of my sanity. Which, by the way, even if they cover will cost me $5-10 per day. And make no mistake, they don't hurry. This snap decision will take them two weeks. I imagine they all need to get back from their Aruba trips and wash the sand off before they can get busy on it. How caring of them. Meanwhile, do they even care how I am doing? What do you think?
It amazes me that there are people out there who are happy with our "healthcare" system. If I lived in Sweden I'd be on my second week of this drug by now and I'd be paying exactly nothing for it. Even the amount of extra taxes I would pay for that privilege wouldn't come close to what I'm paying now for my care. So our system, which costs ruinously more money per person than just about any other, is good how? Good for the insurance companies, for sure, but what about me?
I guess we have one thing they don't have in the rest of the civilized world: we get to make three or four fun calls a week trying to find out why our very expensive insurance isn't covering our medical expenses anymore.
I'm just so sick of it all.
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One day at a time and try to find simple fun with each one without high expectation. PS you can buy just about anything on the internet -- they may ship in the middle of a hollowed out book but hey !~
I hear you, Bro. You are not alone and I'm here for you! Love you, Mim
Remember you can only do so much and not know it all, all the time, the greatest words in the world are "Hmmm.not sure but I can probably find out"
I feel bad for you Dave. Doesn't your doctor prescribing it have a few weeks of samples to give you? It's awful that you should have to wait for something you need to function normally each day. That's just not right!
Thanks Mary. The doctor said this company rarely sends out samples and he did his best to find some but can't. He suggested I just bite the bullet and buy them on the internet for full price, which I am considering, but it's like $10 a pill!
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